today my mood is very very down i think...again again and again..when i choose to put it all down let it over but finally both of us face it..we face it,we made everything clear..i felt happy when you told me the answer,really..at least i'm not the one only think about this everyday,you the same too..but....even you tell me early i think you and me will make the same decision also right?cause between me and you haven't start then already know the answer..so i'm just standing here to stop myself,not dare to move even one step='( so i choose to run away,don't want to face it..it's very hard you know..you asked me that question,even i want also cannot right??this answer start the day we meet each other already know..if really can i will very cherish it,but really can it be?that's very far from us i think,that's too many problem between me and you..i very scare hurt you and him,so i better choose to be silent..i don't want do anything will made you and me regret,don't want force you..even i not dare to start it,i'm so coward right?yeah..it's true.....you asked me i want you how?i doesn't mean that want force you or what..you choose don't want face it so i run away from this..you choose to don't move so i'm just standing here..i already tried my best ,really...that's is very pathetic if a relationship haven't start then already know the answer..so i choose to standing here,stop here..just don't want let myself drop into the deep hole..what to do????SIGH! beside that,i don't want hear you say anything like very hopeless or negative way..i don't want to hear it please......
i'm really helpless.....
i want collapse already....
what should i do??
what should i choose for??
what should i do for my next step??
all i don't know...
may be like this really is good for me and you.....
right?????

~SIGH~