why???

just finished bath,gosh!and my fingers now still is purple colour=.=!too cold man!!sometime even bath with hot water still purple one ler,my cousin said me is alien,lols=p ei,not i want de ler,that fingers became purple me very hate also ma,haihz..

beside that,me today work til 8pm ler..actually got gathering with friends de mah,how know canceled,sobsob!then after canceled how know one of my stuff tonight can't work asked me replace her,aww...so i work til 8pm norhs,if want til 9.30pm i think me will faint,lols..after daddy fetch me up then go eat dinner again lo..but me no eat la,not hungry at all..may be this afternoon ate too many ''ojibala'' things,hehe=p and my face again,aiyoyo..i hate pimple!grr..and hoh,this afternoon me still ate fried chicken wings man!gosh!!i found that greedy really is a bad habits!T_T aiks...no choice,cause i like to eat,haha!!=p

and friend,i know you lie me,my heart is very pain when i knew the truth you know??how come??and i don't know why you want lie to me..i even can't find the reason you know?is that the reason is good for me or what??why you choose to lie me??WHY WHY??ok fine,i don't want to think about it,it just make me feel sad only..but i really hope that one day you can tell me the truth..really....i'm waiting now,the day you want to tell me...........

~how to touch a girl~

I think I could like you
I already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're taking my hand
Looking into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight

Feel something happening
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me
Gotta satisfy my heart

Do you know how to touch a girl
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind
Do you care what's on my mind
Or am I just for show
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside

Do you feel something happening
Could this be for real
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal

Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do
I'll be giving all my love to you

Do you know how to touch a girl
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

hmmp,today that technician really came my house and check for the streamyx..and he said my streamyx modem is good..lols!then the problem is??then that technician said may be is the outside port problem..how know i called him back he told me that wire broken??lols!get shockedT_T he said already fix it just now[really o?],if tonight happen the same thing again call him back..haihz..so i'm kinda scare now=X but tonight no rain ler,want rain just know la..cause last night rain so the line more cham=.=!haihz..anyway,God bless la=) everything will be ok..=)
and me feel very disappointed today,haihz..you want like this so i just let it be..plus i cannot say what also,haihz...try to ignore,haihz....my wish will never come true=X right.......?

so fast tomorrow is friday already,hahas..may be at night got gathering with my all friends..miss the way we chit chat kepo kepo together,hahas=p but my friend not confirm to me yet nehs,hope can la..hehe=) okok,stop here la..nothing much to say today=)
night,sweetdreams=)
tata...

ohman,that stupid streamyx really got problem again..how come the line can be disconnect for few seconds then connect again,then after few seconds disconnect again??how??how come???grrrrr!!!called to 100 just now,haihz..so many things that agent told me=.=!and the conclusion is ''wait for the technician come and check what's the problem'',gosh!AGAIN!!T_T tiring man!haihz...i started think about that want cut my streamyx change to boardband,but!the 1st thing is me must have laptop,sobsob..me don't have laptop,go buy??can't la..i have to think about my pc ler?if not just put there sheng gu o?i need laptop!!T_T haihz..so should i cut the streamyx??if not everyday like this very sien arh,aiyo...the technician can fix all the problem in one time??i think can't lo=.=! after fix this problem then the next problem haven't one month happen again!sao!how come???grrrrrrr!!!my fire is burning uppppp!!!!!!=X

I'M DAMN DAMN ANGRY NOW!!!!
T_T

GGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

~Secrets~
I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

All my secrets away, All my secrets away

monday again..a new week is waiting for me again,hehe=)phew!=p
gastric today nehs,cause me 5pm plus just ate my lunch,lols!then straight no need eat my dinner,hahas=p but my friends got cook nehs,so ate a bit also la=)
beside that,tomorrow my friends said chiong k at red box wor..hmmp,i think i din go la,cause if go sure til very late and me wednesday still want to work nehs,no batt later,hehe=) anyway friends,have fun ya=) ohya,just now rain heavily ler,hmmp..suddenly=.=! luckily when me go back din rain so heavily,hahas=p and!my face!the stupid pimples poked out again,grrr!sienz..may be recently ate to many spicy foods,haihz..='(

aww,blank again..hehe=p
so stop here bah,tomorrow u have to go work around 7am plus nehs ='(
k la..night,sweetdreams=)
bubbai^^

awww,is kinda tired now..but i feel to want came and blogging,hahas=p
today went out almost whole day,goshh..
woke up this morning 8.30am plus..went too 2020 ate breakfast then hang out with my all cousin cousin,hahas..went parkson for movie-2012..finally we bought the tickets,hahas..all together go watched is 8 people i think,hehe..that movie not bad,some part are very sad T_T and some part are happy too=) and many people however,there are also many people died but is good ending in the end,thanks God..really is a nice movie to watch=) friends,should to watched it,hehe..i know this won't happen in year 2012 but one day it will really happen if human don't want to change!this is true..only God knows when is the end,must always pray to God,only He will lead us=) may God bless us always=)
and today i keep eat eat eat and eat,non-stop!lols!ngati,really will become fat pig one day,hahas=p but can't control when i saw the yummy foods,hahas..and today i get shocked nehs,hahas..anyway,i still happy to heard that=) may God bless you always bah=)

grrr,my streamyx line sot again,sobsob..''something wrong somewhere'' hahas!!=p
recently really unstable la,haihz..
okok,have to stop here..my eyes want close already,hehe..
so night,sweetdreams=)
chaos~

it's Saturday today!wau,so fast one week is almost end here..and tomorrow is Sunday!!is my OFF DAY!hoho=p but tomorrow no go for church..cause my cousin's husband chia us breakfast at 2020 morning,teehee=p the reason is......shhhhh!don't want tell you,hahas xD
beside that,may be tomorrow will go parkson for movie 2012,hahas..lung,hope you buy the tickets,haha=) see you tomorrow morning at 2020 la=p
tonight i'm going to sleep alone?ohman.....cause my cousin's mum came back from lawas already,so she go back her own house..then?i'm alone,ohman...move to mummy's room,hahahhahahha=p anyway,hope tonight i can sleep well then straight sleep til tomorrow morning!don't wake up in the middle of the night please,hehe=p scare nehs='(
and YOU!!!i'm here told you that wish you all the best,and must take good care ya..
i know you can take good care of yourself de la,so big liao worr...not kids anymore,hehe=p so take good care lo..maybe this is the last time i tell you liao la,i gonna end up all here..yeah,if i can..hahas..wish me luck bah=) i will smiling to face my everyday too..even sometime will moody also la,hehe..but i won't lost my way,my direction[i think]=) time always is the good medicine to recover,trust me=)
gambateh!!!=)

goshh!!that streamyx line sot again!!unstable ler!!is very very!!grrrrr T_T
suddenly disconnect also can de??sao arh!!T_T
if not you want me call to 100 again??later say what port what system hang lagi=.=!
the reason is always the same,sigh....
ok fine....i lazy to talk about it..
so friends,if you see that me din online that's mean my streamyx is SICK again..

well,went to parkson just now..actually want go for movie 2012 de nehs!
but!!!!!!!!
no seat at all,full ler!!ngaiti!so??canceled jor,sobsob..may be next time??hmmp...
gosh!!i really very sien that streamyx line!!!!!!!T_T suddenly can suddenly dc!!
sao!!!!!
grrr,i lazy to write anymore....='(

recently really unlucky ler T_T
yesterday stomach pain like hell then today my finger cut by stupid blender's blade!gosh!!pain like what jiang!!!!!!sobsob!!sienz~

well,i'm worry-ing now..really,haihz..
is that everything ok there?fine there?good there?haihz..
many question is annoying me now,sigh..
i hope everything is good there..
may God bless..

omgosh!!what happened to me??i pain till want cry!!T_T actually me work til 9.30pm de nehs,but i can't handle anymore so go back on 7pmT_T even want stand straight also cannot!how come?even took the medicine still the same???wth???@#^&*(_$#%^&*() help me please~gosh!!!!!!!!!tomorrow i can work or not?oh please!i don't want la,i want go work la..even tired,even bored,even feel sleepy but better than doing nothing at home right??SIGH!!!stop the pain pleaseT_T it's very suffered!is VERY VERY!!='( sobsob!!

well,still on the way recovering..
recently felt more better?yeah,i wish that too..
and thanks God,everything will be normal back..=)
so jiayou bah..

~goodbye my love~
by tension

当时我没话可说 两眼无神脑空白 那消息实在来得太快
也可能是我自己太冲动 误解你对这友情的期待
爱情像是一场戏 我这出是个悲剧
没演完就有这样的结局 或许是我真的不懂爱情
我还能怪谁只好怪自己
Good-bye my love
我都明白 虽然无奈 还是要看得开
Good-bye my love, my love
短暂的爱 或许十年又一天 你才会珍惜这一段爱
你不会明白 我心有多痛 心里好痛
Good-bye my love
Why does this always happen?
I guess it was over before it begin, or perhaps...
It was never meant to be...
只好在今天 Good-bye
先说 Good-bye
我都明白 虽然无奈 还是要看得开
Good-bye my love 不想分开[短暂的爱]
或许十年又一天 你才会珍惜我 我的爱

recently addicted in this song!although is very old de song,hahas..
must try it=)

went out around 7pm plus,for dinner,hehe=) but so many people,been wait til half an hour i think=.=!then that people ordered wrong again,sao lo..luckily daddy din boom!haha=D finished dinner around 8pm plus la..then asked daddy go boulevard,cause i looking for the pin of Crocs..my friends told me that got sell at the ground floor at front of Mc's ice-cream stall..but!when i reached no any stall at all!!sob sob..i want buy cute cute de pin for my Crocs la,haihz..then mu cousin told me that stall only stay miri for two days only,is that real?gosh...i miss it,haihz..='(
beside that,me 2 or 3 months din go to boulevard liao nehs,wau...but parkson always go lo,haha!!but this week me even din step into parkson hoh...good ler,haha=p but i want watch 2012!!sob sob..may be next week??hmmp...
okie.....i'm blank again,hehe..
so stop here bah=) good night,swwetdreams ya ^^
chaoss~

just woke up,teehee!!=p
actually me 7am++ already woke up lur,went to church..then after came back from my church me continue sleep again til 1pm++,lols..=p too tired and headache too,aiks..hate it!!
i'm hungry now!so want go find something to eat,hehe!!
so tata!!=)

it's raining whole this afternoon,gloomy day='(
recently really hate the rainy day,aikss....
morning raining,afternoon raining,then at night also raining,sien..
even just now planned that want go to parkson after work,cause i want buy myself a slice of cake to eat=)..but!my mum said it's raining heavily and blah so cancel,sobsobs..last night stay at home and tonight stay at home also nehs,become good girl liao o?hhahaha!!impossible!just because of rain so i lazy go also bah..so stay at home watch my hong kong drama..just finished then straight came and blogging here,lols..the hong kong drama-[宫心计] that i watched really very nice la,good!hehe=p those who haven't watch yet faster go and try it!=)
but taiwan drama i din go watch nehs..maybe tomorrow bah[if the streamyx line is good,hehe],cause tomorrow is my offday!yeah=D so i can sleep till late late..sorry mum,maybe i din follow you go for church tomorrow,sorry=) if i can wake up then maybe will go la=)

and now me still think that should i go for study or not arh,haihz..
go next year?or June of 2010?aiyo..
so many question in my mind now..
so many things i have to think clearly before i make the decision..
argh!is kinda hard for me now..haihz...
somebody can borrow me the shoulder even 1mins??
somebody just sitting there listen to me??
somebody come and discuss with me??
listen that what my mind is thinking now??
even 1min?i will very cherish it,really.....
really need it the most.....=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY SISTER!!
WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!
AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS=)
MUST BE HAPPY EVERYDAY=)
SMILING TO FACE EVERYDAY=)
STAY HEALTHY=)
TAKE CARE YA^^
MUAKSS=)

ding dong~~~teehee=P
i came and blogging here again..of course,cause recently i everyday updated nehs,hehe..

this morning wanrou,chow khang came find me,hehe=) and a friend that came from Sibu?if not wrong la,hehe..so just kept chit-chat..hehe=) beside that,the counselor from Nilai University College called me this afternoon,nervous when i pick up the phone=X we two talked about the course that may be i will study for..and i go search the website of this university college..wah,suddenly hope that now i can straight go there for study nehs,lols..i search about the course..about the hotel management,tourism management..hmmpp...i think i prefer to hotel management more bah..more good right??but the tourism i like it also nehs..any advice o??hmmp....my mind will sot one day if i keep on think about this=.=!arghhhh~~ i scare i will regret after i choose it,scare i choose the wrong way=.=! but my aunt told me that just follow your heart and the important is you really interesting in..but sometime the heart will make the mistake also de nehs,hmmp...i should think clearly about this just make the decision...hmmp.....but i wish that i can go study now,at here everyday do the same thing..is BORED!i need something new!i don't want my life everyday just like this..doing nothing='(
where's my future??
where's my direction??
well....
i'm still findingggggggggggggggg=)
always pray to God=)
He's the one can lead me to the bright future..=)

so hotel management???
tourism management???
which one?
which one?
which one?

[in the end,no matter how many times you try to fix things,
no matter how many things fall apart and come back together,
and no matter how hard it is to let it go,
some things will just never go back to how they used to be]

~the climb~
I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head saying
''You’ll never reach it''

Every step I’m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going

And I
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

生命里
没有草稿
无论哪一条跑道
遇上了
就用心瞧一瞧
尝试飞的更高
把梦想找到
要过得更好
其实幸福
不需要技巧
只要简单的微笑
=)

gosh!my mouth is very pain now just because of the ulcer T_T drink much water?but how come still no use one?T_T even i eat,talk,laugh also very hard,haihz..damnnnnnn.......

monday again..a new week is start again..izzit my mood will become more good today??
i don't think so........
still got what else i can waiting for??
nothing,right?heartaches,no point at all....

today i'm damn damn angry when i'm serve a customer!sien..i tried to talking with him nicely but??he talk so loud even i also can't hear my voice=.=!at last i argue with him=.=!that people really noob!grrr!%^&*($# all staff at my working place also hate him=.= fine,stop talking about him,damn destroy my mood!

what can i say again??today is not a very good day for me,may be can say is a bad day for me!haihz..i don't know why my mind today sot again=.=! think and think and think again,sigh~ really suffered me man..when i just can stop this a?i found that i'm so useless!!!grrrrrr!!!!and the stupid ulcer again!!!really made my day bad!!!!!!T_T

~sunday~
woke up around 7am cause want go for church..and is kinda tired cause last night almost 3am just sleep?or 2am plus?don't know la,tired!then came back home around 10am plus..can't handle anymore,too tired..so continue sleep,lols!til 2pm..then??nothing to do already la..so play psp a while,then online lor..stay at home really nothing can do de la,just can online and SLEEP!hehe=)

went to parkson just now,looking for??nothing..lols!just go for gai gai lo..and i bought a slice of cake at secret recipe-mango delight..the taste not bad la,can go try for it,hehe=) then go back home around 6pm plus lor..and go out 7pm plus for dinner again,phew!is tired man!whole day i don't know me go in and out how many times liao,lols!=X after came back home then continue online again lor,really nothing to do,hmmp..so i just spend like this when i'm OFF DAY!gosh....better than go work??please!i don't want,more worst....better slacking at home,hehe=)

beside that,this morning i din go airport for step,not dare nehs..but i got pray for you step!i know you can de,wish you all the best and must take good care of yourself ya^^
well,stop here la..blank again...
night,sweetdream..
God bless...

gosh!that stupid streamyx line sot again T_T
when just can be normal back??#@$%^&**&^%
ssiieennzz!!!

well,work til 7pm today..is kinda tired man!plus last night just sleep for 5 hours=.=!and hoh.....last night 2am plus me haven't sleep then i din eat my dinner so felt hungry,lols!i think is morning breakfast liao,cause is 2am already,hahas!then i haven't sleep nehs,felt hungry..then asked my cousin accompany go find something to eat,lols..of course she haven't sleep also la,hehe!so i ate my dinner almost 2am plus morning!the funny things is me and my cousin still ate durian[sot!eat durian at 2am morning]=.=!hahahha=D after that go sleep,gosh!i really will become fat pig one day,hahas=O this is what i call ''jeefren''!!,always do stupid and noob things!hahhahahahaha=p

and Step!tomorrow morning flight she will be leave here going to kuching study already,awwwww...
must be a very willing scene T_T should i go??i want go,but scare T_T
so just now we all cousin gathering having our dinner..
so Step!must take good care of yourself arh..don't let your parents worry about you=)
jiayou,i know you can face all the difficult!=)
smiling face everyday=D,and may God bless you always^^
i will always support by yourside=)
beside that,my friend he tomorrow night flight to KL,lols!so many people leave miri jiang?[i want also!!T_T]but my friend is go for trip one la,hahas..will be back soon i think,hahas=)
anyway,take good care also ya...

today........still the same......
even no any ''connection'' also,haihz....
what can i say again???speechless...
sigh~~~
ok,fine.........
stop it...........

~剪爱~
人变了心,言而无信.
人断了情,无谓伤心.
我一直聆听,
我闭上眼睛,
不敢看你的表情.
满天流星,无穷无尽,
我的眼泪擦不乾净,
所以绝口不提.
所以暗自反省.
终於,
我挣脱了爱情.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
有许多事,
让泪水洗过更明白.
天真如我,
张开双手以为撑得住未来,
而谁担保爱永远不会染上尘埃.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
越伤得深,
越明白爱要放得开.
是我不该,
怎么我会眷著你眷成依赖,
让浓情在转眼间变成了伤害.

我剪不碎旧日的动人情怀,
你看不出来我的无奈.

• diploma of tourist guide operation
• diploma of tourism management
• diploma of hotel management
• certificate in hotel operation

so many?
which one??which one??which one???
oh no,another question for me to choose again??.....
i hate choosing in any question man!!
choose good way then ok lo,if choose for wrong way???
SIGH!
can i choose all of this o??=.=!
study til pengsan!
actually i till very blur in this,jax!
ask for more detail for me,thanks ya....

~爱情没有对错~
为什么是我 要被捉弄

一好球 变坏球

那又怎么说 关你什么

谁爱谁 没来由

一个人 寂寞寂寞 两个人 牵手牵手

甜蜜了 享受享受 即使落空 自由自由

一个人 不够不够 两个人 左右左右

互补了 勾勾指头 好久好久

把你的心给我 一起走到最後

是否勇於接受 一生就你和我

爱情没有对错 我们勇敢追求

就算要失控 又害怕什么

做了一个梦 不是泡沫 建构中 会闪烁

关了一扇门 不必上锁 那阳光 会洒落

一个人 寂寞寂寞 两个人 牵手牵手

甜蜜了 享受享受 即使落空 自由自由

一个人 不够不够 两个人 左右左右

互补了 勾勾指头 好久好久

把你的心给我 一起走到最後

是否勇於接受 一生就你和我

爱情没有对错 我们勇敢追求

偶尔会犯错 也是种享受 美丽的拥有

小看了我 小看了你

我们保存期限还很久

还有很多以後 还要很多荒谬

下一步错 下一步对

我们选择机会还很多

还有很多是否 还 有

把你的心给我 一起走到最後

是否勇於接受 一生就你和我

爱情没有对错 我们勇敢追求

就算要失控 又害怕什么

把你的心给我 一起走到最後

是否勇於接受 一生就你和我

爱情没有对错 我们勇敢追求

偶尔会犯错 也是种享受

你是一个梦 不会殒落 建构中 会闪烁

爱是一扇门 不必上锁 那阳光 会洒落

~~nice song~~
~~sing by Landy~~

just came back from outside,hmmp..went for movie again-horror movie[phobia 2]if the spelling not wrong la,hahas..
hmmp,still ok la this movie..in this movie got five story,all is about ghost de of course..not very horroe in this movie..some part i still laugh ler,lols!don't know why,may be the action noob,hahhaha!!and the last story very funny!lols!i kept laugh only,even my cousin tried to stop me,hahas!=D and this movie just started haven't 15mins then the people sit at front of me already scream,lols..but i din scream in this horror movie nehs,even the sound effects also failed to make me scream,cause?i got my own way la,but this is my 1st time do like this when i'm watching movie=p,hahas!!

i'm tired today...
headache,gastric,flu,all find me in the same time,sobsobT_T
what happen to me??
hmmp,i don't know........
sigh for how many times today?i din count it,i lazy to count it anymore..
everytime count everytime disappointed........
a lots of things i want to say,a lots of things is inside my heart...
but......it's hard to say.......
yeah......it's very hard!!!
i'm still on the way to recovering............

I'M DAMN TIRED!!!!!!T_T

stupid streamyx,disconnect again..
streamyx also want bully me....
sob sob...........

~一秒也好~
我关上了门最后一次听你说我们　熟悉变陌生把我往记忆裡扔
我应该习惯你离去的眼神　才能让失去你变得更完整

窗外的街灯还在努力掩饰着早晨　我的叹息成全了整夜的苦闷
我该努力习惯这样的气氛　才发现失去了爱不用再等

我知道我的一切你已不想要　继续在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬　原来离去(爱你)是那麽难预料

找依靠却没有我想要的好　我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀　原来任性对彼此都不好

清晨的街灯翻开了城市中的心闷　我的等待成全了整夜的苦闷
我努力在你的回忆裡狂奔　才了解失去了爱不用再等

多想再一次紧紧的拥抱　就算给我一秒也好
一秒可以给多少　我都想要

~~Thursday~~
anything happen today??
well,i'm still the same..got friend chit chat still ok but when i'm alone then the things came back find me again..the things that make me very tired very helpless,haihz..is that my smile very fake today?is that?erm,i think won't la..at least my friends din ask me ''ting,why you so moody?'',phew!is very scare to hear that..

i don't know what should i say now,my mind is blank..
i wish that i can shout it all out!!scream!!
i SIGH for how many times today??
i don't know..............

today my mood is very very down i think...again again and again..when i choose to put it all down let it over but finally both of us face it..we face it,we made everything clear..i felt happy when you told me the answer,really..at least i'm not the one only think about this everyday,you the same too..but....even you tell me early i think you and me will make the same decision also right?cause between me and you haven't start then already know the answer..so i'm just standing here to stop myself,not dare to move even one step='( so i choose to run away,don't want to face it..it's very hard you know..you asked me that question,even i want also cannot right??this answer start the day we meet each other already know..if really can i will very cherish it,but really can it be?that's very far from us i think,that's too many problem between me and you..i very scare hurt you and him,so i better choose to be silent..i don't want do anything will made you and me regret,don't want force you..even i not dare to start it,i'm so coward right?yeah..it's true.....you asked me i want you how?i doesn't mean that want force you or what..you choose don't want face it so i run away from this..you choose to don't move so i'm just standing here..i already tried my best ,really...that's is very pathetic if a relationship haven't start then already know the answer..so i choose to standing here,stop here..just don't want let myself drop into the deep hole..what to do????SIGH! beside that,i don't want hear you say anything like very hopeless or negative way..i don't want to hear it please......
i'm really helpless.....
i want collapse already....
what should i do??
what should i choose for??
what should i do for my next step??
all i don't know...
may be like this really is good for me and you.....
right?????

~SIGH~

wau,such a tired day for me,hmmpp....woke up around 8am++..but my eyes still don't want to open,tired man!=X

today work til 8.30pm only nehs,after that daddy bring us went for dinner..but me no eat nehs,cause just now working ate many ''o ji ba la'' things,hahas=p after that go back home lo..go back home can do what again?online la!but me very scareT_T cause my streanyx line cacat recently,haihz..really scare that suddenly that line disconnect again,wuuuuuT_T then i watched my hong kong drama ''宫心计''!!very nice wor,hahas!!and ppstream seems like got new taiwan drama released nehs,hmmp...nice ka??should go take a look,hehe...

i SIGH for 3 times today,yeah!finally can decrease til 3 liao worr,jiayou bah!!
even my friend me looks like moody,but i'm ok..really,trust me=)
on the way recover-inggggg=) jiayou...

gosh!today is a bad day for me!!i've been suffered for whole day!!T_T just because of that stupid once a month then my stomach pain like hell!!!T_T even go bought for the new medicine just now,but why still pain worr,T_T the worst is today so many customer!gosh!even serve til want pengsan!!T_T i only got two hands only ler=.=!even cannot finish do my things,grrrrrrr!then my stomachache lagi!sienz!!!!!sobsob~

beside that,my streamyx problem again..today that technical staff came my house and checked,but!i'm not at home=.=!luckily that people got call to me..then he said the modem is ok,no problem..then i asked why i can suddenly disconnect then cannot online,he answer that ''this i can't 100% guarantee good la,cause is the system problem''and bla bla bla....whatever,i really very worry about this lo,sienz..if not suddenly cannot online agian,haihz...

i'm very tired today,really very tired T_T
SIGH for 4 times today,haihz...
still on the way add oil,hmmp........

wau!!so fast!it's November now!still left for one month then our 2009 is finish!woooo=O

beside that,is that anything wrong with my streamyx line??gosh!!i called four times to 100 today!the people talking to me in phone still like beh song jiang wor!talking to me like no patience jiang!then i answer her very loud!is you 1st hor,not me want treat you like this!!so can you please serve your customer nicely?@#$%^&* wt??!!!then the conclusion is??''dalam tempoh 2 atau 7 hari akan fixkan masalah ini''!this answer me already heard for many many many timessssssssss liao ok!!!damn!!that's mean i have to wait again??sao!!after move to here then the streamyx line always cacat!!but before i move to here never have this kind of problem lo,haihz!!actually i don't know what happen to my streamyx la!now me can online then may be the next second me CAN"T online!disconnect!even my modem's PPP light also don't have!then i totally cannot online!grrrrr!!!!really hate this kind if things lo!!!then after few hours can on again,you want me how o???!!!so that's mean i have to worry about my streamyx everyday??gosh!!!wth!!i don't want!i don't want me now can online then the next second can't!!T_T shit! sorry..i know i'm talking very rude now but i really beh song bah..haihz!ok fine,don't talk about this,made me upset only..GRRRRRR!!!

went out around 4pm??yeah....i think so..together with my cousin and my niece too..parkson again?yeah....miri is very small one ok...really don't have any nice place to go lo,so everytime go the same place,do the samething,find the same person??i think so=.=!opps,talking craps again o?lols!!okok,back to my topic,teehee!=p then went to shop shop lo,went to ToyRus,parskon,and??bla bla bla...i choose to go out cause my streamyx is sucks!i can't online,haihz..but you see now me can online blogging here=.= then i think you can know my streamyx is noob lo!suddenly can on suddenly disconnect!SIGH!!!go back home around 6pm+ lo..after came back home my dad said want go out for dinner nehs,so?prepare again then go out also liao..went to pujut there having my dinner with my cousin and her husband and daughter-Tiff!hehe..saw my friend-Ling,i think went for dinner with his family too,hehe..just greeting like normal=)suddenly miss the life when we still school nehs,hmmp..after dinner went to servay,cause mummy want buy some of daily use..luckily mummy got bring the recycle bad lor,hahas..i saw some of customer din bring the bag so used hand take it after paid..i saw the one still take a pair of shoes o,lols..so friends!if next time you wan go any supermarket remember bring together your recycle bad!cause SUNDAY is no any plastic bag,except you bring yourself,hahas...

i SIGH for 4 times today,haihz
headache,gonna sleep soon?hmmp,may be..cause tomorrow still have to work nehs,haihz..
k la,stop here..good night,sweetdreams~=)