new year eve~

wao!today is 31Dec and also is the last day of 2009!blink your eyes,tomorrow will be a new year for you and me,2010!and i'm here wish you all that have a best year in 2010!wish you all the best and wish you all dream come true..hapiness is always be with you all=))

but beside that i'm gonna pengsan now if my period pain still don't want to stop!T_T i took the medicine already la,still pain..suffered me man!i can handle til tonight boh?adui..want go for steamboat tonight,hahas..but one of my friend asked me go they party lagi,but i want go steamboat,hahas!or else i go your party late a bit?after steamboat,haha!!but you all best friends gathering then me suddenly go there feel a bit weird nehs,hmm...i'm still at my cousin tuition center t nehs,ah fen go out with her mum and her auntie liao la,nice=)

well,tonight is new year eve wor..din go any place to celebrate o?hmm,i think me just go eat only gua,so pity no place to go..countdown at home lo,lols!anyways,no matter how still wish that everything is going good..=))

just view back the posted of previous months of my blog just now,hmmmm...
many things,many feeling,many question is came back to me again..
the same question,the same feeling,the same mood and the same answer??
did i really give up?
did i really make the right decision for myself?
did i do the same mistake?
did i regret about this??
well.......
suddenly,my mind is blank now i think..
i wish that the decision is the right way for me and you..
i wish that this is the last time i make the decision between me and you..
i wish that i won't regret...
i wish that you can understand me,know what i'm think...
i wish that can know what you think too...
i wish that this is the one last time!!!!!!!!
BUT!
i think the situation for me now is good too...
i wish that we can just continue like this..
don't want to suffer anymore......
this is the one last time.............
one day,scar swill be recovered.........
this is the conclusion.........
trust me......
=)))

=))))))))

went to parkson for movie just now again,hahas=D watched Alvin and the Chipmunks!it's damnnn cute and funny!friends!you have to watch it!hehe=PP and saw jess just now,hehe..so ngam,we are in the same cinema,but!when finished just know that,lols!
and i went to dental clinic today,lols..i'm kinda scare man!thanks God everything is ok..but the doctor told me that the reason me tooth pain is my 智慧牙 grow not very good so if pain again have to operation to cabut!T_T if want straight cabut cannot!gosh!get shocked when i heard thatT_T i tot me just go and cabut then everything ok,how know?operation lagi,sobsob..but luckily is i just spend for rm30 for this time checking,hahaha!!if cabut want rm100++ ler,haha=DD anyway,thanks God til now everything is ok=))
beside that,ah fen is backed!!finally this time she really success did a big surprise for us,lols!cause just now me and wen went to parkson,how know wen's sister call her and said that got people find her,lols..we two straight blur@_@ how know is ah fen talk to her!!hahahaha!!!!!but til now i haven't see her ler even she's house just beside me=.=!lols!cause she go dinner with her japanese auntie already,hehe..so maybe tomorrow just go her house find her la,hehe..=P
AND!
tomorrow is the last day of 2009!new year 2010 is coming soon..time really passed so fast like roket,and now already is the end of this year..any new plan for 2010?well,i have to think about it,hehe!!=))
k la,stop here..good night,sweetdreams ya!
God bless=))

~明白~

这是我第几次唱情歌
也是我第几次独自难受
我想你从来就没想过
我却想了好多 好多

那是我第一次深爱过
也是最后一次我被人说
也许你还是不相信我
还是你对我没把握 你没有说

还是你真的不爱我 你告诉我
有时我会想离开 想证明我的爱
或许我还不明白 你给的是不是爱

我在门外 我在等你叫我回来
除非你真的不再对我关怀
我想念你的爱 没有人看出来
或许我早该明白 你给的并不是爱

别再责怪 我想你受到伤害
因为你是我最深爱的女孩

你在不在 希望你是真正的愉快
因为你是我最深爱的 女孩

i'm damn damn boring now=.=!doing nothing at home,gosh!it's killing me=(
the weather is hot!made me headache only,haihz..
it's a boring day at home,what should i do?watching for the drama?well,i'm lazy to loading,have to wait and i scare my streamyx cacat again,even not dare to load my ppstream=.=!wt??!!haihz..
i found that if not working stay at home really nothing to do,it's really really really boring!grrr!actually i want working start today but i have to go for dental clinic tomorrow..impossible me start working today then tomorrow take off again right?very mafan,so i choose that mayb friday just start work lo,hmm..i scare that go for dental clinic ler,gosh!especially when you hear the sound of the machine in the dental clinic,gosh!!it's scaring me man!T_T plus me almost 8 years din go for the dental clinic liao ler,oh man!somebody help meT_T
i'm kinda boringgggggggggggggggg~~~~
what should i do for today?????????????

~angels cry~
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed, if you’d said
We couldn't made everything okay
but we just threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low I'm still on the ground

I couldn't prepare myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Supernatural, love conquers all
Remember we used to touch the sky?

And lightning don't strike the same place twice
When you and I said goodbye I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift we let it drift in the storm
Every night I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe,can our love be revived?
Bring it back and we gon' make it right.
I'm on the edge just trying to survive,
As the angels cry.

Limitless omnipresent kind of love couldn’t have guessed
It would just stop and disappear in the whirlwind
Here I am walking on this narrow rope wobbling
But won't let go,waiting for a glimpse of the suns glow

I know I can stand just pull me back up
There ain’t a hurricane it’s just us
I'm willing to live and die for our love
Baby we can get back that shine

Cause lighting don't strike the same place twice
When you and I said goodbye I felt the angels cry
True love's gift but we let it drift in a strom
Every night I feel the angels cry

c'mon babe,can our love be revived?
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just trying to survive
As the angels cry

Baby i'm missing you
Don't allow our love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike the same place twice
When you and I said goodbye I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift but we let it slip in a storm
Every night I feel the angels cry

argh!me woke up very early today lar,just because that i want go dental clinic,but!!when i reached there it's close!no open!!i have to wait til this wednesday,gosh!i have to suffer two more daysT_T i don't know what happen to my teeth,grrrrr!hate it so muchT_T my cousin got asked me go for another dental clinic but i scare nehs,another one don't know good or not,haihs..i'm damnnn worry now,i worry that my teeth pain again,sobsob...i need a DENTIST NOW!!T_T

tiredd!!!!!

finally!finally came back to miri!=) i'm damn damn damn tired this week la,oh man..this few days at KK or Lawas everyday low batt!ngati,not enough sleep plus everyday go out from morning til night just go back to hotel,phew!really want faint,hmm!but,i enjoy it very much,hahas..
well,i took lots of photos,hehe..all upload at my facebook already la..if not upload here very slow+lag!hahas=D
just enjoy it at my facebook=)
i'm lazy to type anymore,hahas..
continue next time..
it's kinda tired now=XX
so chaos~=)

good morning!hahas!!today woke up so so so early ler,hahas..around 7am,kinda tired..
was online-ing at my cousin tuition center now,doing nothing bah,they all are teaching now,just left me only one in the office so i came and blogging here lo,hahas=DD i have to wait til 10 or 11pm plus then just start drive to brunei nehs,hmmm..so i'm kinda boring now,hmmm...
anyway,wish you all have a nice day!God bless..
take care=)
tata......

yahoo!!=)

busy packing my luggage just now,phew!i still try my best to think that what else i forget put in my bag,hmmmm..medicine?camera?mp3?well,all this i put in my bag already=.=!and hoh..my bag seems like not enough space for me nehs,lols..even my bag is big,haha!=P hope i din forget the things i should bring lor,hehe..

well,i'm gonna leave here tomorrow!going to KK!!ohman!!waiting for long time already!=DD even kk if not far from miri but i really wish that can leave here go to other place to relax myself,take a short break,hahas=) nad tomorrow!!!i'm gonna go!!yahoo!!the feeling is damnn happy man,hahas=) okok,stop it..haha=DD

so friends,me will off from tomorrow til end of this month?actually when come back me also don't know yet,lols..but will update when i'm back,hehe..
so friends,take care ya..
God bless you always=)
chaos~~=)

sunshine=)

phew!a very good morning!sunshine!!sunny day!hahas=)
i'm very free now,wah..damn like the feeling,cause no need work bah,hahas=P
do what i want,do what i like!hahas=P
so later will go to my cousin's tuition center,do what?actually i don't know also nehs..cause she husband go out with daddy so may be i go there replace her husband,lols!but this morning i did a mistake again,haihz..the last time i did this mistake is past two months,but today i did it againT_T anyway!!i want to change this bad habit!hmmp!!jia you=)
X'mas is coming soon,hahas..and maybe i will celebrate my X'mas at KK,yeahh!=) the feeling sure definitely not same,hahas..different place,different people,different feeling=)hoho=)
happy X 1000000000000000000000%

yahoo!!yess!!yippee!!hoorayyyy!!
my holiday starting today!!hahas!!!!damnnnn happy nehs!finally i can off for one week!and leave here!take a breath and relax myself!hahas=) sadness please get away from me,=) and starting today no more wake up early,no more works,no more sleepy,no more tired and bla bla bla,hahas=D i can do what i want what i like!hoho=D play til crazy play til sot play til forget who i am,lols!!=D

went to parkson just now(miri is very small one ok..)went to mcdonal lo,hahas..eat that new de burger,got 2 favorite nehs but i choose for chicken one,hmmp..not bad la,can go try it..and hoh........my eyes!T_T just now go checked and found that my degrees increase liao,adui....how comeT_T plus me seldom wear spec de nehs,so mean that starting today i have to wear my spec everyday??sobsob..beside that,just now i bought for 4 cans of popcorn,lols!!i'm sot,i'm crazy!hahas!no la,actually bought for next Tuesday de la,hehe..cause from miri drive to lawas almost want 5 or 6 hours ler=.=!in the car sure nothing to do right??then??EAT la!hahhas!!then in this 5 or 6 hours the popcorn is my baby in the car!hahas!i think me will get diabetes,choi~~hahas=P

well,this few days keep think about the movie of ''Avatar'' nehs..i want go watch laT_T my friends watched already ler,she said very nice!must go watch it!and the director of this movie also is the same director of Titanic wor,and hoh..the newspaper said that the director spend for 10 years to prepare for this movie ler!adoi...that's why he can be a director!lols!!(seems like talking craps again)ok,stop it,hahas=D anyway!i wish that can watch this movie!!hehe=)

~话题~
面对面坐着的是不是你
爱情还在不在进行
想问你是不是想要放弃
却害怕你也在问自己
分手是我们唯一的话题
却没有人愿意提起
如果一开口便成了结局
我的心就会离开身体 活在过去
爱不爱结果都教人伤心
我不知道该怎么作决定
分手应该是要先哭泣还是先忘记
你是否也有相同的难题
你的勇气里有我的命运
我不知道你会不会决定
我想我现在还不够清醒
该爱着你 该离开你
还是继续逃避

~two is better than one~
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
Hey, you know, this could be something
Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"
Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone

And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one

phew,it's 11.54pm now,still left 6 mins then it's 20Dec2009,hahas..just because of only left for 6mins so i faster came and updated my blog here,lols!
well,doing good today..nothing special,hahas..you know what,my boss posted 6 or 7 boxes of books came again!but!!!i'm start holiday tomorrow!!!hahhahahahah!so i no need do for those books posted from Kuching,hahaha=PPP friends,jiayou bah!hahas..but i think when me finish holiday go back work also haven't finish all the books la..cause last time my boss also posted 7 boxes of books then we almost spend one month to settle it all=.=!phew!and hoh!izzit my working place 'starbookstore' very hard to find o??me even din received the 7 boxes of books ler=.=!already 4 days liao nehs,how come?if before i think can received in 2 days or 3 days nehs,hmmp.....something wrong,haha>.<
working til 7pm today,then go back lur..cause mummy said today celebrate 'dong zi''..but this year the different is ah fen not here,miss her much!hehe=P and hoh..next tuesday we all go KK already,so today replace lo,hahas!but i no eat 'tang yuan'T_T aiks..you know my friend said what?my friend said that go KK also can eat ma,but i want eat that make by ourselves de mah,haihz..so boh bian lo,no more can eat,sobsob..
just now go sogou see that got any new song to download or not,but i saw that yiruma's album,then so happy jiang lo!how know asked my friend then my friends don't know also,lols..me still happy happy jiang tot that got new album lagi,lols!
beside that,chatting with ahfen in msn just now,hahas..the happy thing is she won the prize in the lucky draw,lols!and she got participated in drama at church just now,hahas!!i think she now sure very very happy!thanks God!=) everything is going good=)
ok,fine...gonna stop here..
continue tomorrow bah..
chaos~
night,sweetdreams,God bless=)

ermmm,what should i say again?
well,i'm doing good today..(i think so?) and the weather still is damnnnnn hot!=X and my mouth ulcer againT_T and many pimples,aiks..hate it so much..
i feel happy today actually,hehe..the reason is.........shhhhhh~ the secret cannot say,lols!=p
doing nothing at my working place today,this morning still slept over lagi,adui..may be last night slept too late=.=!
ohya,i want cut my hair la,haihz.cut to what again this time?i wish that can cut short til my shoulder?any suggestion o?hmmp.....
opps,want continue my drama liao,hahas..
continue tomorrow bah..
tata~
night,God bless=)

Wednesday~hmmp....
i'm doing nothing today..just sitting at my working place like noob,keep on reading my novel,haihz..and the weather is damn hot!even no appetite to eat,hate it so much..and recently keep headache la,sometime still can pain til want vomit..adui,really want pengsan..T_T

actually i got lots of things to want to say,but...i don't know where should i start,pity..i wish that i can wash my brain=.=!just forget about all the sadness=.=!if i can!hahas..but!that's very hard i think..ha!ha!ha!=.=! not funny at all=.=!well,stop talking about craps..i know this is lame=.=!
hate the feeling=X

i hate it so much~~

i hate the feeling!!hate it so much!!=X
SIGH~~
fine,stop this topic..

well,today woke up 7am..early man!cause want cleaning up my working place,hmmp..
awww,feel hungry now..haven't eat my dinner yet=.=!then now already 9++ liao nehs,better don't eat straight go sleep,hehe..and hoh!yesterday i din on my pc ler,hahas!just tot that i can do it also,hahas..plus not feel to on alsoT_T sienz..every time i see every time i sad,haihz...better choose to run away,don't want to see=.=!#$%^&*()*&^%^&*

i'm so bored today,almost fall asleep at my working place,but!finally no also la..cause working ma,how can sleep de nehs..so just tried my best to open up my eyes BIG BIG!!haha=P but doing nothing also=.=! haihz...

hmmp,i have nothing to say again..just came and update update xia lo..
i lazy to type..i lazy to think..
so night all,sweetdreams..
God bless..

p/s:don't ask me again!!don't ask me why,don't ask me what happen and......please~you know i'm talking about you so just please don't ask...

little thing

~little thing~
Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinking tea in bed, watching DVDs
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You'd take me out shopping
And all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you make that face you do
There's no-one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?

路人

我像路人看著你走
逃到愛情外的你終於罷休
過節霓虹炫耀你的自由
就分開走　我們說好不回頭

我不習慣牽自己的手
這樣卻能夠止住顫抖
你求去的泪我一个個人收
離別擁抱的溫柔　還清楚感受

那回憶緊緊追在身後　像敏銳的狗
你到最後不開口　就換我先走
想當初我不成熟　現在才懂

這一次　我是路人看著你走
站在愛情外燭光點亮四周
發現那回憶無法拼湊
夏天的風彷彿一瞬間轉秋

這一次　我是路人背著你走
幸福是愛繼續的唯一理由
此刻我何苦演你的對手
愛到最後　成全了你的自由

這一次　我像路人看著你走
逃到愛情外的你終於罷休
過節霓虹炫耀你的自由
就分開走　我們說好不回頭