hmmp,went to parkson today..

went to movie,even i still in sick,hehe=p
may be because of my sick then me almost fall asleep in the cinema ler..
1st time,lols!
watch GAMER today..
ngati..that movie really confuse me lo..
almost finish i just realize the movie is doing about what,haha!!xD
but is ok for me la,just got a a bit boring only la,hehe!
AND!!!
my hand is freeze in the cinema!!is damn cold for me!!
even my fingers already became purple colour=.=!
then i still used my bag cover my body ler!
duhhh....
and the worst is i din bring for the jacket=.=!
so?suan le bah!!
just let me freeze inside the cinema bah!LOLS!!=P

beside that,my tang ge is looking for the new cloth..
so accompany him go find for it..
then took some photos when my cousin is trying for the new cloth..
hoho!!=p

hmmp,that's all for today la..
tired already nehs..
gonna go sleep nehs..
so night all..
sweetdreams=)

woke up around 10am..
hmmp...
a beautiful Sunday for me again=)
i din go for church,sorry mum,hehe..
cause last night slept very late so can't wake up early in the morning,haha=p
beside that,my sick is getting more serious already..
duhh....sienz ler..
the flu is really suffered me lo..
so last night sleep not very well,hmmp..
and cough lagi,haihz..
so guys,you all must drink more water and take good care of yourself la..
don't get sick..the feeling is damn s*ck!

well,still think that want go out or not nehs..
cause waiting for the phone call from my cousin..
but if no go out is ok for me also la,just sit at front of my pc whole day lo..
i always do that,hahah=p
but my friend said don't always sit at front of my pc..
but if not like this what can i go again o?
sleep??
lols!maybe is the good idea for me too,haha=p

it's 12++ now nehs..
BORING!!
nothing to do,hmmp!

gathering with my family=)

gathering with my family just now
i have nothing to said wor
so just let the photos talk bah
hehe=)

actually still got many,but i lazy to upload liao
the line are very weak now
hehe=)
so that's all for that=)
night all
sweetdreams^^

suddenly feel that want posted up this photo

my friend bought me this from Taiwan
he said this what Taiwan people called ''dream catcher''
in chinese called ''梦网''
may be is the time i very need in this

many dreams that i haven't accomplish yet :~
1-i want go for study,and have a good future
2-i hope that my life can be colourful til the end of my life,don't want to see my life just like a blank A4 paper
3-go for my dreams place=)
4-go for adventures,amazon?hahah=p
5-bring parents go for oversea trip=)
6-be a daughter that won't make my family disappointed on me=)
7-meet my mr.right and have a sweet romantic love=p [may be this still far from me,hehe]
8-
9-
10-
l..
l..
l..
l..
l..
100-

and i still got lots of dreams have to accomplish it
so i very need in this dream catcher
hope this dream catcher can catch the all dreams that i want=)
i want accomplish all the dreams before i leave this world
for my family,my friends,all of peoples is beside me=)
really wish that........

today woke up 11am++..

long time i didn't sleep til so late liao nehs,hehe=)
din go for work today,take leave
cause me stomachache til even want wake up also hard,awww~~
even already ate the medicine still the same T_T
plus get flu and cough again,gosh!
~~suffered~~
sobsob

aww~~
my stomach kinda pain now!!
started from afternoon til now ler..
even me already ate the medicine,even i drink hot no cold anymore,but?
still the same T_T
oh no!
be girl really very pity,hmmp!

well,today me almost sit on the chair for whole day ler!
just wrapped for the books,duh...
BORED ler=.=!
and my hand many of wound
just because of the paper cut!
hmmp..
but is ok la,doesn't matter..hehe=)
and today me work til almost 9pm ler..
cause my friend attended for the dinner so i have to replace her norhs..
so?mean that i really sitting there for whole day,lols!
except the time went to ate and toilet,hahahh=p
beside that,today early in the morning me started sore throat again..
then just now more worst,after ate the mango that bought from my friend then started cough=.=!
excuse me.....
me just ate a little bit only ler,=.=!
me still think that want eat durian when i go back home..
cause daddy bought me durian again,hoho=p
oh no,daddy!
if you keep buy like that one day your daughter will become fat pig later,haha=p
but so what?i like to eat then ok la,haha!=p
but the worst is daddy no buy me rambutan,but is ok la..next time lo,hehe=)
[ ei,sista!i know you want eat durian!haha=p so yummy!=p wait you come back 1st la,daddy sure buy you many!don't eat til vomit then ok liao,hahh=p my lovely sista!really miss you so much nehs!miss the way when we're gossip gossip,laugh til so crazy!hahhahaha=p so you please come back faster!we all here miss you very very muchie=) ]

-To my friend-
~wish that one day you can tell me what you're thinking,what you really want~
~i know you will~
~if all put inside your heart is very tired one~
~may be you don't think that,but for me really made me tired~
~anyway,if you need a listener just find me up,hehe=)~
~i will be the good listener~
teehee =)

~I Remember~

Where were you, when I said I loved you
And where were you, when I cried at night
Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you
Thinking of, all the times we shared

I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up loving you
My heart couldn't take no more of you
I was sad and lonely

I remember when I walked out
I remember when I screamed I hated you
But somehow deep inside, still loving you, sad and lonely

No one knew, all the pain I went through
All the love, I saved deep in my heart for you
Didn't know, where I would go, where I would be
But you made me leave, and plus my heart it just
It just kept telling me so

I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up loving you
My heart couldn't take no more of you, I was sad and lonely
I remember when I walked out
I remember when I said I hated you
But somehow deep inside, still loving you, so sad and lonely

There was nowhere else to go
Nobody else, to turn to
For the rest of my life, I promise myself I
Will love me first, genuinely

I remember when I stormed out
I remember when I gave up loving you, I was sad and lonely

sad~
disappointed~
moody~
pity~
tired~
waiting~
pathetic~
T____T




울고 아파
기다리다 지쳐
그래, 난 smilling 해요
하지만 내부에 난 죽어 가고있어

30/09/09

my mood today is super duper damn down,sigh~ the one word suitable for me now is STUPID!chat with my friend just now again..i think only her can know what i'm really want,what i'm really think about it..she told me that after she viewed my blog can felt that me very very moody recently..izzit my blog make you feels like that?hmmp..i'm also the one trying to change but seems like very hard for meT_T sometime want cry but i force myself don't cry!hate the feelings like that!my friend said may be after cry you will feel better?i think so..but i really don't want cry just because of that.....really don't want!so i try and try just to be normal back!!!sigh~ wanrou,you told me many..but me really no yong qi nehs,you know the reason right?so i'm trying my best now..sigh~ hope can over now,really hope that..may be i'm the one most stupid..always do the stupid things,always think to stupid way,always said the stupid things..can be someone just stop me??i scare one day i really can't handle it..it's hard!very hard!it's over from now on!!!!!!!!!!!!

夜空的流星向寒冷的北方下坠
往北斗星的方位
你在我不了解的世界
城市的爱情弥漫着多少的虚伪
在表情冷漠的街上演着离别
将过去刻化成石碑
我温习所有情节
却刻出一个字叫后悔
星星的眼泪满天的风雪
我被回忆四面威胁
你拒绝了解什么叫凋谢
什么叫做哭着失去一切
星星的眼泪满天的风雪
谁不为爱伤痕累累
你竟然坚决将故事结尾
我的笑容已经不完美
只有夏天盛开的玫瑰放肆的嘲笑落叶
自己却不敢不敢面对被搁在玻璃瓶的岁月

gonna have a short post today cause it's 12.25am now,hehe!

today woke up around 8am,still felt that want continue sleep nehs..but i can't cause still have to work,hehe!and today whole day at bookstore really fight with my 8 boxes of books!lols!til my hand pain=.=!hmmp..what can i do?me and my friend even just done for one box plus only ler..then i think till next next week just can finish all the comics and novel..and this time got many chinese novel ler,i like to read..even i know the love story in novel won't happen in our reality,may be really got,just the percent is 0.01 nehs.. but just feel want to read lo,may be the love story is too perfect!but in reality?it's hard,right?hmmpp....so just read for fun lo,hehe=) cause at bookstore boring also nehs,when nothing to do then is the time for me to read lo,teehee=p

did some mistake today..hope can forgive me,i know you very good..hehe=) won't repeat again,hehe..

hey sis!i received the photos that you sent to me!lols!!still wrote what angel o?why i can't see the ring on your head and the wings nehs?hahaha=D you is inside the operation room right??then still can took pic?and still used the light made yourself really like angel jiang wor..mummy laugh after she see the photos ler!haha!so you please stop do the stupid things!hahhahaha=p i go report your doctor!!lalalalalalala=p

k la,that's all for today..tired already,night all..
chaos~ =)

i'm eating my dinner now,hmmp..hungry wor,hehe=p

today my boss posted 8 big boxes of books from kuching to us..gosh!!8 boxes ler!how i gonna do all the things??luckily got my friends la,haha..so i think will be busy this few days,hehe..good lo,no need go think about this and that,hehe=)

hmmp,today my friend-wanrou she came my working place..we two chat about many things ler..got good one,bad one,happy one,sad one,worry one and many la..told her what i'm thinking,what i really want and more..felt more better after share with her,thanks ya wanrou=) hehe..thanks for trying help me to solve the problem,really appreciate it=) maybe i should do what you told me,hehe..but wait me think clearly 1st la..i will make the decision one day,no need worry about that=)

today got many pimples poked out again!!!!oh no!so pain!!i hate it!may be is the time liao,haihz...what can i do again?just drink more water norhs..

beside that,my cousin-jax she tomorrow morning flight will go back to KL,wish her all the best and take good care ya=) God always be with you=)

我知道


从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过骄纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦 在脑海里头
我多希望你 还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
答应你 我会好好过
不让 这些眼泪白流

yay!!my 200th posted!!!hehe!!hope can continue it til 300=P

hmmp...today me think about what a?so many things is surrounding in my mind now wor..
but is ok for me la..may be is time to give it up?or is time to forget all the sadness?or is the time to accept that?is the time to be crazy?is the time to be happy?or is the time to release all my pressure??......................................

actually me today off nehs,but i have to work..luckily i'm not work at bookstore whole day..it's really killing me if whole day at bookstore..cause no people then i will start think about craps you know..kept on think this and that..me just now at bookstore 2 or 3 hours only ler,then think many again=.=!gosh!!somebody can help me there?haihz..i think no one can help me in this,should face it all by myself right?i'm on the way already,just jia you bah..so i don't want let myself feel so boring,nothing to do,just sitting there or what,if not i sure think about this and that..even me didn't think to negative way but still will go think about it nehs..anyway,may God bless always..never mind,i will be more stronger and braver=) jiayou.....

if one day me suddenly lost in this world,even you can't find me,can't contact me,or what then you will how??sad?keep looking for?or just like that?hmmp..may be.....
suddenly me think about this question..sometime felt tired really hope that can lost in this world for a while or go a place far from here living without sadness,and happiness is always be with you=)..this is super duper good right??and i know that's impossible..but,sometime really hope that..even just a second me also want,release all what i want..
so all i have to do now is be more stronger and braver to face the reality in my life!=)

well,stop talking this,hehe..
gonna stop here..
continue tomorrow bah..
night,sweetdream=)
chaos~

''Never explain yourself to anyone, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. The most difficult phase of life….is not when no one understands you….. but it is when you fail to understand yourself...''

[copy this from my sis's friend]
i agree this..=)
it's true..

today really is a bad day for me..
is really suffer me man!hmmp!
really made me angry!!!!!!!
whatever!!lazy to say..

tomorrow still want work nehs,til morning 9am plus 7pm..
actually me sunday off day de nehs,but i went to kk last week so i replace it back lo..haihz..
really tired..feel that want get sick,please..i hate get sick..please don't come and find me,plus this week me no more off day so please...i can't get sick nehs,sigh~

went to jax's house just now..ate dinner with them,so full nehs..plus i no eat my lunch so just now ate so much!take many of foods in my plate,but?at last gave it to my mum,lols!cause i can't finish eat=.=!luckily didn't kena boom,teehee=p then?came back to my home norh,online again lo..if not?nothing to do again=.=!but online boring too..just now changed my msn personal message to ''just ignore me''..then my friend asked me back ''who dare to ignore you o?'' lols!!gek dao=.=!may be there is many people ignore me arh,just you don't know,hehe...

ok,stop talking craps..
should i go sleep now???
is 10pm++ now nehs...
gosh!please come and help me!!!!!

i don't know want how to describe my mood now..
confuse?worry?sad?moody??
i don't know nehs..
i already tried my best..
so i won't be moody..
so i won't be sad..
so i won't cry..
so i will be happy always,smile always=)
although i'm still kept think about it..
but i still hope my friend that can be happy always,take good care always...
promise that.....really hope that........


went to parkson today,watch G-Force..nice to watch,funny and cute=)
after that went to korea restaurant opposite the Chung Hwa..
hmmp,1st time went to there..ordered some food,nice to eat too..not so spicy,my friend he ate many,lols!and he told me something,somethings that made me bla bla bla.......
hmmp!i already tried my best..sure i can do it=)
anyway,thanks for the movie,thanks for the dinner,thanks for the bread,thanks for the all=)
really=)

i'm hungry now=X 2pm ate my lunch til now,hehe..
hmmp,today me very soi ler!early in the morning i scream at my working place!!gosh!!cause i saw a big insect!if kena bite will die de ler!i don't how to say in english la,chinese i know la..called ''wu gong chong'' gosh!!!i really want pengsan when i saw that!!!=X now think about it still felt very gross man!geli a!and hoh!!after i scream then my friend came then you know what happened???that stupid ''wu gong chong'' is gone!!!Gosshhhhhh!!!til just now i came back still haven't find that stupid thing!T_T tomorrow that ''wu gong chong'' will come out boh??kinda scare ler!what type insect me also scare so please get away from me!!!!PLEASE!!!T_T
then when i came back home haven't go in my door me already scream!!gosh!!!!!!!can you imagine that??one day scream two times??and still jump here jump there like what!grrr..my mum still laugh at me,sobsob..mummy!you know me very scare insect then that stupid insect at the back of me but you didn't tell me,still quite there nehs...T_T one day i will get heart attack!hmmp!gosh..
beside that,my friend moody wor..don't be moody la..just go take a rest then all the bad mood will get away from you=) hehe!happy always la=)
stop here,night=)
sweetdreams=)

I'm only me when I'm with you-taylor swift

Friday night beneath the stars,
in a field behind your yard,
you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.
And sometimes we don't say a thing;
just listen to the crickets sing.
Everything I need is right here by my side.
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you.

I'm only up when your not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town boy and girl
livin' in a crazy world.
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.
And I don't try to hide my tears.
The secrets are my deepest fears.
Through it all nobody gets me like you do.
And you know everything about me.
You say that you can't live without me.

I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.
Only you can tell.

That I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you

♥

gosh!!i'm damn angry now!!grrrrr!!!!=X haihz...but felt better after calm down,hmmp!okok,stop talk about this..
started working today nehs,tired..plus at my working place very boring de nehs,doing nothing,goyang kaki..but around 3pm chin hin came,lols!!play til so crazy!and he still don't want give me the chinese star!sienz him a!still want me beg him hoh!=.=!!actually he got gave me before,but that one i totally don't know how to use it,lols!!install also no use nehs..so i asked him find another one for me,then?he ngiao ji me!still want me beg him wor..man man wait la you=p may be i can try find it in google=p and hoh!today he found my book!gosh!!luckily he didn't see anything!phew!!cause i kept on stop him!!used my FULL energy,hahaha=D you will never see what i'm wrote!!=p and that's is my secret nehs..i want keep it for myself only,hmmp..=) ♥
well,stop here..nothing to write nehs..
so night,and have a nice dream ya^^
chaos~

zao an!!!!!=)

good morning everyone!!=)
actually i'm still sleepy wor,hmmp..can't continue sleep nehs,don't know why..this few days sleep not very well,got panda eyes!!lols..
hmmp,i'm hungry now,aww...opps!suddenly think that bread bought from jax!haha!!it will be my breakfast i think,hoho=p
well,gonna stop here..go check my facebook 1st=P
so bubbai^^
take care
and have a nice day ya=)

**capture capture**

did you saw any crocodile?hahahha=Ptook this at beaufort bridge..


actually i don't know what's that,lols!took at beaufort..


took this when on the way to KK!my number-6566!!so i faster took it!hahahhaha=p



took this on the way to KK too=)


took this on the way went to one borneo=)saw the mosque??hehe=p


chocolate banana cake,haha!did you see anything??=D


my name start from "J",haha!!took this two pic at KK-secret recipe=)


fruits queen-mangoesteen and fruits king-durian!hahahhaha!!!


lols!!see the goose!i took this when on the way go my mum de 'san ba'..i took that goose it's looking at me de nehs,hahaha!pro liao!
then the next it durian tree!lols!!so many=X if drop down,no eyes to see,haha=p


took this in the toilet,hahahahhahaha=D still want paid for 30cents arh,at papar there,haha XD


actually i want buy this at one borneo,but at last i din buy it nehs,hehe!shark!!grrrrrr=p
hmmp,that's all for this trip..cause i didn't bring my camera's memory card!!grrrr!!!so i bring my camera also no use,sienz!!!reached lawas i just realize that=.=!haihz..so i just took some only lor,hmmp...
beside that,me want post the photos that i took when my aunt's singing competition,hehe..shun bian liao bah=)


me with my lovely aunt=) *peaceV*


my cousin and my two of aunt=)


my aunt=) she won 1st prize in girls category=)


me and my cousin-jessica,blur ler.....=X


CHEN's fan!!!from taiwan,hongkong,singapore,japan,korea and thailand!!!hahahhahahahha=D
hmmp,i think that's all only la,haha!if i miss it i will post it up again,hehe=)

and last is my yummy foods-bread..brand Gardenia=) haha!!my cousin at KL finally bought it back to me=) cause miri no sell nehs,so i asked her help me bought it,thank you very muchie,jax=)


my aunt very like it too,i miss this bread for one week?two week?hmmp...nice!!!you all must try it,hehe=p actually that banana and strawberry one i haven't try it before,jax intro me said not bad,hehe..so i will try it later,lols=p hmmp,anyway..thanks ya=)

woohoo!!!!reached miri=)
backed=)

reached=)

hmmp,just reached lawas,hehe=) mum still think that want stay here over night nehs..but i don't want nehs,i want direct go bah..mummy still discuss with my aunt..mummy,can direct go or not??hmmp...
today i really woke up 6am,but!my dad haven't wake up at all,lols!still lying on the bed nehs..so i won again,teehee=p
okok,stop here..wait til my next post bah=p
wish all the best=)
chaos~

today felt ok already wor=) good!even sometime still got think about it and felt confused too,hehe..but i already tried my best=) so hope can be more good then..=)

tomorrow i'm going to KK,hehe=) til next Tuesday,i think is tired for me but is ok la..at least can take a break for me go play=)happy yi xia xia=) by the way,my dad said tomorrow 6am go ler,cause we drive our car go ma..but i don't think so,haha!i think done all the things may be already 7 or 8am++,haha!!my mum just now asked me sleep early,lols..then i still blogging here,teehee=p sorry mum=p cause tomorrow i have to say bye bye to my pc liao ma til next Tuesday,lols=p so let me finish this post 1st=) beside that,tomorrow school holiday start nehs,hope won't traffic jam at brunei..really tired sit in the car whole day then still traffic jam,sien arh..so may God bless=)

hmmp,just pack finished my things..is any that i forget put in my bag?my cloth,my vitamin,my camera,my medicine,my wallet and???ermmmmm,i think no liao gua,hehe!ohya!today i saw a big big big cockroach at my working place!!!!!!then?????run la!!!!!kong bu nehs=X then at last that cockroach death also la..but not me kill,i'm not so geng til dare go and kill it,lols=p

well,i'm gonna stop here..so friends,you all take good care ya^^
will continue when i'm come back from KK=)
bubbai^^
night=)

phew!is 8.32am now=)
finally today i can slept over til 8am nehs..last few days just slept til 6 or 7oclock only,hmmp!so this few days i got panda eyes!lols=p and the freaking pimples,sobsob......please get away from me=)
well,a new day for me..should learn to be stronger and braver=)
jiayou bah=)
wish you all have a nice day,take care=)

i like this song!!小男人 大男孩sang by 萧敬腾!hehe=) a happy,funny song!lols=P
his new album is nice to hear..you all must try it=)

i'm hungry now,but i'm eating now too=) fish ball with tomato sauce=.=! lols=P
moody today?i tot that i can hide it very good,but seems like got people realize that..i already tried my best,still the same?then i have to add oil again,hmmp!by the way,thanks for tell me that,even after i heard it almost drive me crazy,sad,shocked!at least you got told me..but now is ok already le,after calm down myself..so no need worry about it,ok?=)

today working sooooooo boring!!gosh!you guess how many chinese novel i read??7!!gosh!!cause too boring liao nehs,then i don't want just sitting there then think this and that so i go find novel to read..then?this way is worked to me wor,hehe=) plus not many customer today so i read novel and goyang kaki this whole afternoon=.=!teehee=P
and my face!!grrrr!!!!poked out pimples again!!!please la,when just can stop it??when just can be balance back???!!!!!sigh~ me already control myself don't go eat fried foods liao nehs,still no use??T_T never mind la,can diet also,teehee=P but every time i said wan diet then sure failed!never success one,wuuuuT_T boh bian,saw the yummy foods can't control myself,haha=D
so hard to diet,getting fat fat fat=X

beside that,today my streamyx line soooooooooooooooooooooooooo weak,even want on my msn also hard,sigh~~ my friend told me yesterday that his streamyx vry lag,then i straight said ''HUI MER??''lols!then today turn me,grrrrrr...then now i just know that all my friends is the same now,lag daooooooooo.........=X

is any that i forget to write?hmmp..seems like finish already boh,hehe=)
so stop here lor..
chaos=)
night and sweetdream..
JIA YOU!!

morning!

morning everyone!!!!=)
i think today is the nice day for me gua~~=p hope so..
everything is ok,fine now=)
is 7am++ now,me woke up so early nehs=p actually 7am me already woke up lur,tot that i can continue to sleep,how know can't then i give up lor,hehe=p then i woke up straight sit at front of my pc again,hahhaa=p even me haven't go out my bedroom,lols!mummy!i'm hungry now!is any yummy to eat a??=)
opps,early in the morning rain already nehs,cold=X today work til 9.30pm nehs,gosh!ok,is ok for me..at least i'm not just sitting at home like nerd=p if not think this and that again,i really hope that is over now=) suddenly really miss the way that........shh!kept this for myself!=p
friday~~can you please come faster?hehe=) really need a place to give me to crazy now!then go kk good a,can be crazy like what!no people know me at kk ma,hahahaha=p then miri can't ler,send me to hospital,lols!okok,stop talking craps=p
okok,then....stop here la,continue tonight??hmmp,may be=)
so chaos~~
and have a nice day,wish you all the best=)
take care=)

i'm very sad now..
i'm very moody now..
i'm very down now..
i'm disappointed on me now..
i'm totally lost my way now..
i'm really hurt when i heard that..
i don't know how just can let all the things over..
is there somebody can listen to me?
is there somebody can help me?
is there a place to me hide myself and cry?
T_________________________T

finally i told him,luckily he can accepted it,i really scare that hurt you,really scare..may be your friend is right..ya,he's true.......
i just need a place to calm down myself..
i really need it now..
my friends said may be after cry then you will get better..
the way to me now only right??

maybe you're right.....
maybe you said de is true.....
sorrryyyy about that.......

finally~~~~~

wohoo!finally i can used my own pc online and blogging=) but i'm hungry now=.=!hmmp..
lols,just now my sis sent me a link of video!you all must watch it!ngaiti!i laugh til my tummy burst!xD http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Lb_sfdylkw you must watch it!lols!!!when bad mood may be you can try it,i already bookmark this link,hahahhahahah=P when emergency=)
hmmp,today felt more better already=) hope i can continue it,don't be moody=) today my working place totally no customer nehs,duhh...then?BORED!!=.=!i have nothing to do nehs,so?kept on read my novel,haha..
ohya!my photos!i haven't upload it,teehee!wait me free 1st norhs=P tomorrow i have to wake up early T_T 7am nehs!gosh!i think i'm the 1st one reach working place,wuuuuuuu=X then tomorrow want work til 10.30pm nehs..gosh!i have to work til 10.30pm,tired!i want sleeeepppppppp=P don't want work,hahas!then no money then cannot buy anythings,lols..and i want go KK next week,no money very cham nehs,hehe..
okok,stop here..blank..
continue tomorrow=)
tata,night=)

T__T

almost 2 weeks i didn't blogging,hmmp..the stupid phone line problem,me already lazy go talk about it..til today same!can't on,even my home's phone also can't call out!sien!!called 100 four times ler,answer is the same ''WAIT'',cause the sub cable stolen by thief!grrrrr!!!!!cable also want stole?please la,aiyo T_T before you want steal it can you please think about us?don't let we all area here get into trouble!so now i have to borrow my cousin's laptop online T_T
actually i got many things to say,but today my mood really down,anyway i will try my best to face it..i don't want other people realize that i'm moody,very down..so jia you bah,you can do it better..
last week my aunt got singing competition nehs,i got took some pic but now i'm not using my own pc so can't post up,so wait til i can on 1st bah..beside that,she won 1st prize in girls category=) and Oct still want go brunei for the next competition nehs..jiayou o!if can i sure go there and support you!!jiayou wor=)
by the way,yesterday got discuss with my working staff cause i want take leave when hari raya,hmmp..i lazy say about this just the conclusion is i can go,hoho..good!may be this few days for me don't stay at miri better=X then everything will be ok=) i want go KK next week,hehe=) daddy said go KK by car wor,hahas,so i can sleep in the car lo and listen to my mp3=p hope after me go there can throw all the sadness here!!!!!!!hoho=) may God bless me always and of course my friends=)
hmmp,last two week gastric 3 times nehs..just kept on ate medicine,hope it won't happen again..the feelings is kinda suffer for meT_T ohya,just now went to canada hill climbing..almost half years no go liao lur..still tot that i can't finish climb all the mountain,lols!hope next week can go again..diet!
well,i'm no mood to continue anymore so just stop here bah..
hope everything will be ok=)
wish you all the best and happy everyday=)
chaos~~night

opps=P

hahaha!!my dad just boom me just now=P sorry papa,i don't know you already wait me at downstairs liao ma,so sorry..when me and my cousin go in the car then daddy kept on nag nag nag and nag,haha=P sorry,cause before when reach mummy got called me ma,but today no call nehs,so i tot you haven't come lo,hehe=) sorryyyyy=)
beside that,my [______] seems like very down..hope he don't think too negative la,just be positive,everything will be ok,trust me=) i know now for you is very hard,you need time..just let the time bring away your sadness and replace in happiness=) i don't know how to help you,but i will always support by your side..just be more braver and stronger=) jiayou^^ so just try your best to do it,i know you can=)

gloomy day~~

aww,today whole day raining nehs,felt cold..even can't see the sun too,hmmp..the sky looks like so sad,cry almost whole day='(
felt bored today at my working place,nothing to do..just sitting there playing games only=.=!read magazine,plus raining again made me felt so sleepy..
well,yesterday got wrote about that i want take leave when hari raya,then today i discuss with my mummy again..they seems like want go ler,lols!so can give me a confirm answer?i need to tell my boss wor..by the way,just go for 4 or 5 days only nehs..really want go?rush here rush there?lols!i think so..but is ok la,may be mummy too miss my aunt,haha=P if want go then go lor,just give me a confirm answer please=) so mummy,you faster confirm answer then tell me=)
is 10++ now...felt boring,nothing to do again nehs..soooooo?????
stop here looooooo....=)
night and sweet dreams^^

grrrrr!!upset!!

sienz!i'm kinda beh song now..whatever,i won't let you make me feel moody!many people already knew that your attitude always like that,so.....i won't blame you,just if you beh song me what just come and talk to me,don't go tell other people me what what what,you always like that not tired de mer???really can't understand what you thinking=.=!phew!okok,stop this topic=)
well,anything happen today??hmmp..i think no la,just like normal lo=) ohya!just now got discuss with my boss that i want take leave when hari raya nehs..but seems like very hard..she just can arrange 4 til 5 days for me only nehs..cause mummy said may be want go to KK find my aunt ma with my 2 cousin..then if i don't want go then leave me alone at home,my mum sure worry about that..so if want go just got 4 or 5 days only ler,plus we all is drive our self car go nehs,not go by aeroplane hoh..drive to lawas then to KK almost one day ler,then already waste 2 days in go and back liao?left 2 or 3 days nia..go where also want rush,tired de nehs..if cannot then just don't want to lo,hehe=) wait til November or December lo,hehe!mummy can ma?can la hoh=P
beside that,one of my friend he tonight want sleep at airport,lols!cause he is waiting the flight to Taiwan..til tomorrow morning,hahas!anyway,take good care of yourself la^^ and must wear your face mask too,is important!i know very suffer cause i went to KL before got wear also=.=!hard to breath de nehs,but is important so you don't have choice!hoho=P and enjoy your this journey to Taiwan also=)
so i stop here bah,night and sweet dreams ya^^
chaos~

moodyT_T

felt moody today whole tonight,haihz..sien!i lazy to say what the reason is made me moody now..whatever!just let the things that made me moody get away from me!get off please~
hmmp,is there any funny things that can change my mood now???i don't think so='( well,happy go lucky so don't think too much better,hehe=) may God bless us always=) happy everyday=)

watch movie today=)

went to parkson today again,teehee=p with stephane and aiwen,cause i want watch movie and also want give my friend-leeting chinese novel and cd..because she working there kinda boring just like me,hehe=) then today i go watch cartoon-UP!nice wor,you all should go try it..such a nice,sweet,funny cartoon,hehe=)
beside that,tomorrow is public holiday nehs..but!!!!i have to work also!!sobsob!!haihz..and is work whole day til 9.30pm,gosh!then tomorrow is public holiday nehs,sure many people deT_T please la~~~~~TIRED T_T anyway,wish tomorrow that all the best..God bless us always=)
hmmp..i think just wrote til here la,blank again=p
so night,and have a nice dreams ya=)
chaos~~

T_T

Sunday again,just woke up and came blogging here..even i haven't brush my teeth,lols!my cousin also nehs,so we both just slacking in the bedroom don't want go out..got air cond ma,hehe=) so i just online checked my facebook lo..playing restaurant city,lols!i saw other people restaurant!so nice man!!me just started play nia so my shop looks so poorT_T i saw the one most geng de!!so high class man!so that's my target!hoho=) then my cousin just edited photos using herself laptop norh..
so today i think me will stay at home whole day lo,haihz..doing nothing=X online watch drama?hmmp,may be too..something is in my mind now,annoying me T_T i hope me won't do the same mistake again,i don't want,please......
just now me and aiwen plan that want go watch movie..hmmp,watch UP?my friend said very funny nehs,hehe=) hope so..
k la,stop here..i wan go eat my breakfast+lunch=p
wish you all have a nice day ya=)

passed three days=P

now i'm gonna write about my passed three days,lols=)
last two day-27th went to my friends birthday,so nervous but luckily everything is good=) and i think he really get shocked for few second lo,haha..beside that,i don't know want how to talk with him=.=! may be he feel shy gua,anyways wish he can happy everyday and all the best la=)
then yesterday..yesterday night me got work nehs,and is many many many of customer!i wonder how we can just five peoples then can handle all the customer,lols=) thanks God,everything is ok too,hehe..then 9.30pm me go back home lur,hehe=)
then today still the same lo,working also..but the diff is til 7pm only ma,hehe=)yipee!then went to parkson lo..saw my friends(hin and jing)lols!then just chit-chat like normal lor,then bye bye liao..hahas=p i bought myself hand lotion..cause my hand's skin very dry nehs..haihz,so i bought lotion lor..and went to mc donald ate too,hehe=) then 10 oclock came back home liao..
so this all is about my passed three days,lols!me too lame liao so wrote like this(craps)lols!!!=p
so i stop here bah,night=)sweet dreams ya^^

p/s::tomorrow is my off day!!yeah=D

edited=P

i have nothing to do so i posted up this two photos that edited by my cousin,lols=)
left is my lovely mummy!she look so happy!but is true too!haha=)cause this photo took at KK when my uncle aunt all gathering together=) plus my mum's sister and brother all no live together ma,so this time can all came and gathering together sure very happy norhs=)
and right is me lor..took at KL-Time Square..drinking watermelon juice,nice wor..hahas=)

feels like want get sick??T_T

is 6pm++ now,actually this time i still working lor..but now me already came back home liao..cause felt uncomfortable T_T is that i eat wrong things?but no ler..my stomach right side felt pain nehs T_T ate medicine still the same,sigh~ may be this few days not enough sleep gua,cause slept very late recently,hehe..cause online watch drama,teehee=P
so today came back home early for rest lo,hehe=) hope tomorrow will be ok=)

go?don't go???

hmmp,today woke up so early..i think 7am only then my mum wake me up,hehe!cause today i want go my working place early for cleaning up my bookstore=) one week one time so i choose on Tuesday lo..hehe=)
hmmp,my friend..she seems like drop again?anyway,i really don't know how to help you..one thing that i can help you just always stay by yourself and support you..and the most important is you don't think to negative way la..that's not good for you,i hope you can learn that to be more braver..face all the difficult things by yourself..i know you can do it de,just need time..so jiayou bah..one day you will success!!i waiting for that!don't give up ya=)
and today got a question is made me felt confuse=.=!that's my friend invite me go for his friend's(but also my friend)birthday party..then he want curi curi bring me go=.=!said what give surprise to his friend=.=!should i go?don't go?gosh!annoying me=.=!but the present me already prepared done liao nehs..should i go?????don't go?????argh!!!!!okok!stop this topic =X

OFF DAY

ohno!today kinda boring!!is killing me!!even is my off day=.=!so i spend my whole day watch drama in my room,lols!!watch hong kong drama and taiwan drama..but i forget watch my Bleach=.=!cause kept on watch hong kong drama,haha!!then now my eyes is very tired,haha!cause me using pc online to watch,hehe=p if not i don't know what can do again nehs,plus i lazy go out too,hehe=)
ok,stop here..i want continue watch my drama,hehe=) chaos~

sunny day=)

sunny day!=) nice,no more gloomy day,hehe..today my aunt and her grandson came miri here from kk..7am++ already reached miri so my parents very early go airport fetch them..but too early so i didn't follow up go fetch my aunt norhs,hehe=) then 8am++ my dad came back and fetch me go work again,hehe=)
today just like normal,nothing special..everything still the same nehs,hehe..ohya!one thing that made me felt so gross today=.=!my customer,he get flu seriously and cough,gosh!even he got wear the face mask also no use..you know why?when he reached my bookstore then he take down the face mask!lols!like that you better don't wear la..wear liao also no use!the worst is he cough at front of me ler!and he flu!gosh!hope that I'm not disease by H1N1=.=!choi!i think he better wear the mask 24 hours=.=!hmmp,today work til 7pm only nehs..good!=)
beside that,i watch a Hong Kong drama just now..call ''绝代商娇'',nice wor..a bit funny,hehe..so you all can go try it=)nice^^ and Taiwan drama me now seldom watch liao nehs,cause busy to work,wuuuuuuuuT_T so tomorrow me off day i want watch all movie i want!!hoho!!=P hope so,lols=p
hmmp,tomorrow Sunday,yipeee!!OFF DAY!!but can sleep till late late?may be=.=! cause my aunt came here nehs,should i accompany them go eat breakfast?haihz..but i hope that can sleep til enough enough nehs ='( anyway,see 1st la..if i can wake up then go lor,hehe=) and my aunt's grandson he cried just now,haha!because of that he miss mummy at kk,haha..i think so,plus he only 5 or 6 years old only,hehe..but my aunt kept accompany him la,so now already go dreaming liao,hehe=P may God bless him and have a nice dream ya,don't cry again..=)
by the way,school holiday is starting today right?hahas,when I'm still study sure very happy because of this school holiday,but now?nothing special T_T cause no more holiday for now,just everyday work work work and work=.=!haihz..hate the life like this T_T very boring,nothing special,and everyday doing the same things..any new things please~~haihz!whatever!stop this topic,make myself felt down only T_T
hmmp,I'm gonna stop here again la..blank again,hehe!!
so night,and have a nice dream ya^^
chaos~~

Thursday=)

opps..almost 12midnight,hehe..then i just came and blogging here..i think many people already go dreaming liao,lols..cause just now busy do my mum's pic that took at KK when we went to KK trip..she want wash 5R or 8R?deng!so big,haha!but the photos very meaningful for my mum la,cause all is her sister and brother took the photos together=)
today my face poked out a pimple T_T red and felt pain ler,sigh~ may be this few days i kept ate fried chicken?hahas!so now became like this,wuuuuuu T_T wah,so fast today is Thursday,hmmp!then tomorrow Friday liao,hehe!yeah=) and beside that,my dad told me that if you got any flu,cough or what what what even not is H1N1 you also have to wear the face mask,if not will kena saman and go to jail for 2 years=O so geng man!!so guys!wear it if you got any flu or what,if not kena saman and go jail lagi,hahaha!!
and jax told me just now she already bought the air ticket and will come back on next month,good..hari raya can go eat curry,lols=p anyway,wait you ya^^
so late already,so stop here norhs..tomorrow still want work nehs,so tata=) and take care ya=)
night and have a nice dream^^
chaos=)

~比愛更愛~

望著窗外　她擁抱我入懷
吻著她　我確定我愛她
在呼吸一剎那　她身體的香塞滿我胸膛
也壓垮我所有偽裝　臣服了她
可是妳才能讓我愛到
比愛更愛　卻不能永遠在一起
離開妳再把誰抱緊
比傷更傷的心　也都會留下縫隙
只有妳　在我心裡的妳
比愛更愛　我最痛最愛的秘密
我太想妳　我太愛妳　曾擁有妳(卻失去妳)
關上了窗　心飛到妳身旁
越想放越放回到心上
對妳曾說的話　換作承諾她說得我心慌
當自己被自己模仿　這算懲罰
我曾答應妳分手後絕不放棄愛情
她讓我實現我對妳的約定卻失去

a sunny day!!=)wau,today felt more better already,hehe=P thanks God=)let all the sadness get away from me!hehe..
actually i'm eating my breakfast now,but also can blogging one ma,haha..so i take my breakfast and sit at front of my computer,teehee=P hmmp,later 9pm want go working already,until tonight 9.30pm,12 hours..oh man!tired='( but is ok la,better then sit and home and doing nothing right?hehe..
erm,i think just stop here la..i want prepare go work liao,hehe!!hope you all have a nice day ya^^ everything will be ok=) take care~ chaos~

sad=(

suddenly felt very moody again=( i don't know why..today seems like yesterday again nehs..felt so down=( gosh!!!!!!i HATE!!!!!!!!feels like want cry already..this few days kept like this..T_T is any body there tell me why??T_T but i really don't know why me became like this T_T please la,this stupid feeling please go away from me!!!!!T_T

well,what i'm gonna to write?i don't know also nehs..my mood not very well today,haihz=( something wrong again?i don't know,sigh~ suddenly many things in my mind!all the things that made me moody,not happy,tired=( is raining now,same as my mood?so down=( grrrrr!i hate this feelings!!something wrong today??!!!but i don't know!='( sigh~ is any body help me there?i don't think so=( i have to face all this problem by myself!!let all the things get away from me!!!jiayou!!!!

=)

Sunday!my off day again!today woke up early cause my dad bought toto then really get the prize!so this morning he chia all of cousin,aunt,uncle ate breakfast at 2020 lo,hahas=) long time didn't ate like that liao nehs..the last time is ah ping shu get the prize i think!hehe=P then me,ah fen,and aiwen went to parkson again lo..cause want find my friend's birthday present,haihz..bankrupt!hahaha=P looking for this present already 2 weeks liao ler,then finally today i found it!hehe=)quite nice la,hope my friend will like it lo..and today i bought myself a wallet,hehe!looks mature,cause i don't want use my postpet anymore,hehe=P then go find ting lo,we go bought mango ice-cream ate,nice wor!nice then durian one la!last time i bought durian de,me really don't know how to eat then gave my friend ate=.=! so i won't bought durian ice-cream anymore!=X then go shop shop lo..and i saw blood donation!i want go try ler!but i scare mum and dad nag me later,say me luan luan lai=.=!so just give it up lo,=( anyway,i will try it next time,hehe!after that go back home lur..
by the way,last night we all celebrate my uncle-ah ping shu's 52th birthday!haha!!last friday is my dad then yesterday is my uncle!hehe!!anyway,wish my uncle happy always,always take good care of himself and also his job!shun shun li li=) earn more money,hehe=) actually my uncle is today birthday la,but we celebrate early la..gave him surprise!ah fen still got bought cake nehs!hehe!so this will became my sweet warm memories in my mind again=)
beside that,i viewed jax's blog just now..know that she get homesick,hmmp!i don't know this feeling but i understand what you think..cause my sis too,when i sis go Pinang to study also like this,get homesick..always miss family,friends,and the everything at here..so jax!be more braver more stronger!don't be moody,don't cry,must be happy always..always pray that God give you power!guide you!you can do it de!must jia you oh!!be happy always ya!we all here will always support by your side!!!gambateh!!=)
and the last is photos!that i took last night when celebrate birthday,teehee!!

this cake very nice oh,fresh cream one=)


my lovely uncle,ah ping shu=P


my uncle and my aunt[sweet couple],haha!!2daughter and a son=P


ah ping shu!!make a wish 1st,haha=P wah!see they all kept aim on the cake!think that ''nice ma?''hahaha!!just kidding la,haha=P


my grandma and ah ping shu=)


last is my cutie tiffany!!hehe!see her teeth!haha!!laugh til so geng!hahahha=P

well,i think that's all for today bah..hehe!!tomorrow want start work againT_T never mind!!jiayou bah^^

so fulllllll=P

wau!kinda full now,ate too many already,teehee=P cause my dad birthday today so went to tanjung ate our dinner lo,hehe=) then i ate so many!chicken wing,vegetables,soup,and CRAB!!!hahaa!!my favorite=P then went to boulevard..find ah lung cause want ask about my pc,something wrong again..haha=P then saw jason too,then just kept chit-chat with them til go back home,hehe!
hmmp,i think nothing much to say anymore=) so just stop here bah,hehe
and the last want wish my lovely daddy happy birthday!!happy always and always in health=) love you dad<3 muaks=")">


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY=)

finally!!!!!

phew!finally i format my pc already,once again thanks ya lung=)
but still got somethings i don't know how to use it,just asked my cousin lo..ma be they brain want explore liao!hahhahaa=p and the worst is!the window media very very old type one ler!T_T even i also don't know how to use it=.=! li hai ma??haihz!just hope can fast fast update til series 9!i just know how to use=.=!whatever la!suan liao,hehe!=p
hmmp,just now ting sent me a song!!call 最后一次 sang by a girl 17 years old,but she already passed away T_T gosh!you believe that??so young!suddenly felt that we all must appreciate our family,friends and all the people beside us!and the life we still want to continue!and the lyric!ohman!really made me cried!!T_Tmy friends told me that this song she wrote for her bf before she leave this world T_T really want cry when i listen this song..so we all must love and care the people beside us..don't until we wan leave this world just regret,that's too late already!so we must start now!!do all the things you think is important!don't let yourself regret before it's too late!=) jiayou!that's all for today i think!and the last is you all must go hear this song!then you will know what i'm think,my feeling..


here the lyric::
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出
等不到天亮
所有回忆没去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我永远爱你

=)

four days didn't update jor,hehe!the reason is?LAZY!lols!sorry for the stupid reason,hehe!!but this few days nothing happen la,everything is ok,thanks God=)
beside that,the reason made me came and blogging is want tell you all that me will format my noob pc..my cousin help me,thanks ya..and i don't know that when he can finish and give it to me,so this few days i think me can't update my blog lo,hehe..but after get back my pc will continue update de la,hehe=)
and Jax!you have to wait the part 2 again lur,hehe!plus my pc go hospital lagi,so you have to wait o..hehe=P
and today is kiew's birthday so wish him happy birthday!!wish him all dreams come true and all the best!and must happy everyday=)
well,have to stop here..gonna go work again!wish you all have a nice day ya^^ God bless=)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIEW=)

hmmppppp...........

hmmp,thanks God!today felt more better..ate 6 type of medicine ler!!sure ok de la,hehe!!and the stupid medicine want how much you know??rm106!lols!my mum said me see de doctor always expensive then other ppl de,haha!sorry mum,i also don't know why,hehe!!=P so now just my stomach still got a bit pain nia lo,haihz..felt a bit hungry nia then straight go find something to eat already,scare later BOOM again!i no energy to handle the painful anymore,hehe=P
just now went to boulevard then i go asked ah lung that want format my pc,hehe!i think my pc kena virus liaoT_T so i have to send it to hospital before it become more cham,haha!! so once again thanks lung again,cause help me to format my stupid pc=) p/s:actually he already help me format last time liao,lols=P
beside that,today weather damn hot also,and the haze!became more worst!please la!don't burn any stupid things again la!made the haze more worst and worst only!

get sick!!!!T_T

wau,so many days i didn't update my blog..T_T cause i get sick!vomit,flu,cough,gastric lagi!!all came find me in the same time!wth???!!!grrrr!!!really killing me!and my cousin my sis also get sick!gosh!!you two must take good care of yourself ya!and my friends beside me too..eat more vitamin!by the way,the weather really sucks!damn hot!plus still got haze!!!!sienz!!

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actually me now should sleep on my lovely bed,but?tiffany and her dad came my house just now,cause my mum not at home so i have to woke up then opened the door for them..plus aiwen slept like pig din hear any voice that ah kok asked to open the door,lols!shhhhhh!later ai wen beat me,haha=P
then me already woke up liao so i straight asked ah fen she got go church or not lo,cause last night very late just sleep mah,so my mum didn't wake me up go church lo..then i asked ah fen then she said she's mum already go liao!today is how a?so many people woke up so early de mer?today Sunday ler=.=!haihz..so i miss up go church this Sunday again!T_T sorry God,hope you forgive me..hehe=) then many many de reason made me now blogging at here liao lor,hahas!
last night went to parkson..i bought a new key board and a web cam,hoho!finally got liao lur..plus last night web with jax also liao..hahas!good!but sometime that web cam still cacat de wor..sienz!but anyways,thanks to wen also la,hahas!cause half is she bought for me for my birthday present de.hahas!=p then after me install the web cam something happen!sao a!after i install the web cam then i pc hang so i restart lo,how know after restart my pc can't online..wth??????so i go check in control panel network connection..then i totally can't find my local area de icon lost liao!really make me heart attack!wuuuuuuu~~~T_T but after restart that icon came out again,sao a!play me jiang!sien=.=!but thanks God finally that icon still got,if not i really don't know go where find the icon=.=!beside that,last night i bought 2 dvds..hahas!ice age3 and the last blood of vampire?i forgot the spelling,hehe!don't know nice boh,ah fen said later come watch with me,haha!good!
and jax!i haven't upload the photos la,hahas!wait la..me sure will update de la..just dont' know when only,lols!=P
so should i go back continue to sleep now?deng!such a stupid question nehs=.=!lols!
anyway,stop here..continue tonight?hmmp!may be..so wish you all the best and have a nice day ya=)